So I have been wanting a new job- a career- for quite some time, but to be truthful with myself, I haven't really started actively looking until just recently. Something has recently shifted and I don't know what it is, but now I can actually visualize myself working in a different type of environment.
That being said, I had my first interview this past Monday.
It was for a staffing coordinator position at Cornerstone Staffing. A friend of mine works there and she had given my resume a little push.
I went in and I aced the interview. We laughed, we talked, I was completely honest and it felt really great. I felt like I had the job. There was no nervousness and everything seemed like it went incredibly well.
Imagine my surprise when I got the email this morning saying that they thought I was wonderful but they were going to be screening "additional candidates."
Then I got a text message from my friend that worked there and she informed me that the only reason that they weren't going forward with me was because I had not given notice before I left my job at World Market three years ago. While I think this is a ridiculous rule, it is what it is and while I was a bit disappointed, my main reaction was to ask WHY?
Why did this happen?
Why was my situation with World Market keeping me from advancing now?
That was over three years ago and I do not regret walking out of that job. The Manager there was terrible and I had to leave. It was a matter of doing what was best for me at the time, so why was it slapping me in the face now?
Instead of being frustrated and depressed, I got up and went to a yoga class. I was sitting there barely into a meditation when the answer hit me like a brick.
I had to make amends.
I had thought of this before. I had almost messaged my old manager a few times. I have been doing a lot of clearing work on myself since I started this path a few years ago and I knew that this was something that was definitely blocking me. Every time I thought about the way it all went down back then, I would get seriously angry.
So this was obviously something that I needed to clear and let go.
As soon as I got out of my yoga class, I got on my iphone and sent her a message on facebook. We have nine other people from World Market as mutual friends so she was not hard to find. I told her that I had recently realized two things.
1. That I still harbored a lot of anger toward her for the way that she treated her supervisors when she managed the store and that I needed to let it go. I told her that I forgave her for that.
and
2. I told her that I apologized for being so unprofessional in my manner of leaving. ( I went on vacation and couldn't make myself go back to that horrible situation so I texted her and told her I was out.)
I also told her that I didn't need a response, that I just needed her to know these things.
And the clincher to this- and how I know that I was really being told by spirit to do all this- is that I had a reply to my message within half an hour.
Apparently she had almost messaged me several times as well. She apologized for her behavior and I could tell she was sincere. She has totally turned her life around and is working on some stuff that really seems to be where her life path is supposed to be going.
I am very happy for her. We messaged back and forth several times through the day.
My only regret is that I should have done it sooner- back when I first thought about it. Then I might have a good job right now.
I was talking to my spirit guides earlier and I told them that I think this was a bit dramatic, but Eloy (my partner) made the point that with the way I am with my stubborn personality, this is probably the only way that I would have ever broke down and messaged her.
He's right, as usual.
So, that's clear. Where do I go now, Universe?
I am definitely listening.
